Getting Closer

It is getting closer to Ben's birthday and V-Day. I still have his Christmas gift too. I received $255.37 from my Amazon trade-in and $17 from another website for my textbooks. I am just waiting from the other websites to see what I get for my textbooks. I wish the $255.37 was a check and not store credit but oh well. They rejected the camera from my ex. Ugh, I don't want it! Even a penny for it would of done it for me! I think they are going to ship it back too, nnnoooo!!! I don't want to see it ever again!!!!!

 I don't know if I should get Ben a tablet or not. Maybe. So for his birthday I bought a Lego birthday cake. I don't know if I should put it together or let him. I saw a Lego heart box on eBay but they already sold the good colors. There is another one but is a black box with a red bow. It isn't to bad looking and I am debating if I should get it or not because I don't know if it will come in time for V-Day since the auction is 5 days and it comes from out of state too. I like it because I bought Ben a mini Hello Kitty holding a heart. It is really tiny and cute. I would be cute to put it in a Lego heart box for V-Day but I am trying to cut back on my spending. I also saw a leather heart box and a gourd bird that opens up. Those would also be cute to use to put the figurine in for V-Day. I know I have some V-Day mini boxes that look like carry-out containers but I can't find it. That would be perfect and I wouldn't have to spend money and wonder if it will come on time too. I'm not trying to be cheap but I am being more cautious about how I spend my money because after this term for school, the next two or three terms are going to be expensive and I wont be able to work M-Th because of school. I already have a couple of dates in February so that will help but I don't want to waste those paychecks paying bills. After February, I won't really have the need to spend money (hopefully) because Ben's birthday and V-Day will have past. I jut hope they go great and I still have money in the end for school. I'm still not sure what I am going to do for Ben's birthday. Dinner date and my treat?  

I also saw Lego roses that would be perfect for V-Day on Amazon and eBay. I could always use my store credit on Amazon but people are selling them really expensive and I wonder how much they really are worth. Like $40 for one when I could make it myself with old Legos but even old Legos people are selling expensive. I could also buy it on e-bay since I saw them cheaper and I have $5 store credit too. I like it but I'm trying to save even though I did buy the Lego cake but I also don't want to get carried away on themes. Last year, I gave him bird figurines for his world figurine collection so the gourd bird figurine box might me out. Also, the picture frame apple I got him for Christmas. I did get him a Coach apple keychian last year but the frame was suppose to be for his classroom because I thought he would get hired full-time, so that might make him sad too. So getting a Lego rose or heart might be a little too much after the Lego cake.

I'll figurine out what I am going to do once I get inspired like last year. Hopefully, I have the time, resources, and money.  

More Jobs = More $$$

I was just offered some sub jobs throughout January and February. This is just what I needed. Next week, I'll be subbing Monday-Wednesday, which gives me time to do my homework Wednesday and Thursday before class (unless I get a job Thursday) and then I can observe Friday. I am happy that I can make a little more than $300 next week. So now I'll have money to pay for my Kohl's and Victoria's Secret bills next month. It isn't too much (at least for now lol). I also subbed three times earlier this month so after my bills I'll have a tad bit more for savings and for Ben's birthday. And if my checks from my books come soon, that will really help too. I will also apply to the school district that I am observing at so I can get sub jobs their and get to know the area. I wish Ben subbed for the same district for me so I could see him at work but then he might be a distraction (kidding). I feel bad that Ben didn't get hired full-time. I am going to pray to St. Jude and St. Cajun and hopefully he gets another long term position or hired full time.  

FaceTime with Ben

I FaceTime with Ben Monday night. He called earlier to apologize about date night and wanted to FaceTime later. He is still not feeling well. We did and he looked different but in a good way. He has a goatee now and he said he stopped shaving since he didn't get hired full time. I know how he feels though. While we were talking, we talked about school dances. What would be cute idea is to recreate a homecoming or prom dance since neither one of us had dates to those dances. Also, Ben never went to a homecoming dance. I wouldn't mind doing something like that in the different future when we both have time for an evening event like that. We could even take pictures and be king and queen of the school dance lol,

I'm spending money here and there but not as much as Black Friday. I did buy some sport bras and a pair of shorts because they were on sale and I got a free tote bag. The sports bra were $30 with store credit care so I bought some. I have a $20 promotion code but didn't use it since you can only use three promo codes and 2 were for free shipping and the sports bra discount and then I wanted the free tote so those were my 3 codes but I have till the end of February to use it. I also bought some shoes from TOMS for work and for my family. I used PayPal so I'll have six months to pay it off since it was over $100. So for my brother's birthday and Mother's Day this year are covered.  

January is going by fast too! I just bought Ben a Hello Kitty mini Precious Moment for Valentine's Day and maybe I'll use the NightWing shirt for his birthday. I feel bad but I don't know if I'll get my checks in time to buy Ben a tablet and then I don't know how long it will take too. I want to get Ben a Duracell portable charger too but maybe I'll wait for Christmas. He also wouldn't mind an Ancestry DNA so maybe that will be a future gift idea too. Hopefully I'll have money then too but I don't know since my last two terms will be expensive and I don't know what will happen if I don't get financial aid. Maybe I'll get a second job or take next term off to work more.  

Monday Plans

I'm not sure what my plans will be for today. Ben didn't say anything last night, he just sent me an emjoi heart. Probably clean around my house and room and try to start my homework (download my readings and print them through FedEx office). Maybe look for more books to sell online, lol.  I think I am also going to apply to be a substitute teacher at the district I am hosting at. They make $120 a day and I could use all the money I can get. Next term, my units will be 7 units and I don't know if I'll have enough saved up or not. I regret spending so much money. I'm doing better. I've only bought some things for work and no more then $100 do I want to spend at a store. It sucks seeing most of my paychecks being used to pay for my store credit cards instead of being saved for future school terms. I've also shipped all my books that I sold online. So now I am just waiting to see how much I will make off of my used books. I also sold my camera my ex gave me, thank God! One less reminder of him. One website I sold my books to I made $32 so that's nice. Also, as of know I'll be getting $200 from ebates next month. And if I sub at least once a week, I can make at least $400 a month. Which was more money then my first (former) job and less work and mileage on my car. I hope to have money for Ben's birthday. I just hope I am not tired or busy next month for his birthday. I'm still not sure what I am going to do for his birthday and what I am going to get him for Valentine's Day and his birthday.

Back to School

My classes just started this week and I met my host teacher this week. So far, so good. Hopefully, it doesn't turn into another hell term again. That was really stressful being a month behind and not being able to do anything about it. Anyways, Ben texted me yesterday.

Saturday, 11:56 AM
Ben: Paddington came out this weekend lol
Me: Did you see it?
15:59
Ben: No, I want to see it with you
Me: Aw lol, if you want to see it
Ben: I know you liked it lol. Are you free Monday? It's MLK day so no school or work
17:42
Me: Lol, it's more of my sister who liked it. I forgot there's no school Monday.
19:01
Ben: Haha Awww. Yeah no school it's a free day :)
Me: Lol
Ben: I miss you
Me: I miss you too
Do you think we can do Monday? Tomorrow I have to help my aunt and family move into their new house.
Me: It's fine or next week works too
Ben: Hmmm. I miss you and want to see you soon that's all.
Me: <3

I don't know what my plans will be for tomorrow. I want to see Ben but I don't want to go to the movies. I want to give him his Christmas present too. I want to do something other then go to the movies and the Pompeii exhibit just ended a week go too. :( That's what I really wanted to do with Ben. It's sweet that he remember about Paddington even though I just told him who Paddington was but I really don't want to see it. I am also really tired from the first week of school. He's also making time for me since there is no school or work tomorrow for us. It's nice he offered, but if it wasn't a holiday would he even tried. I don't know what I am going to do or say. I want to see him and there's other exhibits I want to see but I don't know if he even wants to do that or if the museums are opened tomorrow.

Winter Break is Over

My winter break is coming to an end. I start classes this week. It could be last semester too. :/ I took my CSET yesterday. I think I did better then last time, but just a tad. I really don't know if I did well enough to get a passing score. I need a 660 and last time I got a 584. I'll probably get the same score or worse since this test had more econ and government questions now that I think of it. Sigh...I'll find out next month.

I wanted to go to the Pompeii exhibit too before my winter break was over but it is raining today and traffic would be a nightmare. I was hoping Ben would invite me but nope, not surprised though. He probably didn't even remember that I wanted to go. Oh well, I probably won't see him till next month only because it's his birthday and Valentine's Day which will most likely be combined into one date and then I won't see him till who knows when. I don't want to complain because I feel guilty that's he's going through a lot, like his parents divorcing and him not getting hired full-time by his site school. I was hoping he would get hired full-time because it might of helped strengthen our relationship. He would feel financially secure and then I can FINALLY DTR and introduce him to my parents. And then maybe get engaged and married down the line. Hopefully, I can money to get Ben a nice birthday/Valentine's Day.

I'm being careful how I am spending my money now, especially after Black Friday. I don't know how my schedule will be like this semester since I am  going to be doing mini teaching lessons to high school kids. I am nervous since I don't know how the students will be and I have not been in contact with my host teacher yet. I did send her two e-mails but no response. I will call tomorrow. Hopefully, I do not get dropped by her because I can't go through hell again like last term. I did buy my textbooks so I am waiting for those to come in. I just need to send two boxes of old textbooks to Amazon so I can get Amazon credit and maybe get Ben a tablet. I also bought some pet food online since there was free shipping, no minimum, and a sale. Also, some clothes for work and self-tanners. Yes, self-tanners and the Dove brand too. I can only find the Dove self-tanner online. I like the Dove self-tanner since it works actually and doesn't smell bad. I don't want to look pasty and pale when teaching to high school students. It will be just be one less thing to worry about and hopefully one less thing for students to not make fun of me.

 Hopefully, I get  a decent amount of money for the textbooks I traded-in. I can use all the cash I can get since money will be scare now. I am also worried about losing fin aid if I don't pass my CSET and have to take the semester off. Then I wont have enough money to pay for the rest of my classes which would of been two more semesters, assuming I pass this upcoming semester. I wish for a miracle where I have more time with Ben, he gets a full-time job, I pass my CSET, and I get enough money to pay for my classes.        

Dinero

My sub pay check came today. I can now sleep better because now I can pay my VS and PayPal bills and have some money to add into checking and savings. I also dropped off two packages of my textbooks. Hopefully, my books are okay during inspection. I still have three more packages to drop off. I doubt some of the textbooks I sent to Amazon I will get the full estimated price. I noticed some of the books weren't "good" condition but you can still access the context of the material but that's what counts, right lol?! I will have to tell my siblings to take care of their textbooks better so I can get a better resell price. I'm actually proud of myself for getting this far. Usually I just submit my books for a quote and print the shipping label but then I never ship them in the end. I still have some books I can sell but I might need them for school or I just found some today, after I sealed my boxes up. But that's okay, I can sell them later and have money for the summer since I won't be working and won't really have money to spend. I wonder how much I will get for my textbooks? Hopefully I get enough store credit on Amazon to buy Ben a tablet for Christmas and that the other places I sent my textbooks to give me a good price because most of those books were like new. I also traded in my camera that my ex gave me for Christmas years ago to Amazon. It doesn't work and it just another thing that reminds me of him. I don't care if they gave me a penny for it, I just want it out of my sight. I'm also collecting water bottles too. I know I probably won't get much my it is better then nothing. I can use all the cash I can get. I want to start selling online too. Maybe I'll start that up in the summer so that can be summer income. Now if I can win a scholarship that would be great too! :)

Tablet

I think I know what I am going to get Ben for his birthday/Vday. I think I am going to get him a tablet from Amazon. I thought about a Kindle Fire but you pretty much have to be an Amazon Prime member to benefit from it. It also had okay reviews. I wish I new more about GB and what Ben is looking for in a tablet. The Kindle also didn't have much storage space either.  So maybe I will get him some type of Samsung tablet. I have one and it isn't bad. So hopefully I can buy one by trading my old text books and a camera that my ex gave me. It was a nice camera but it does after a few times and people I knew that had that camera said the same thing. It's also one less thing to remind me of him. Anyways, my estimated total was $224. I wish I could get that in cash but I'll take the gift card. It's probably going to be less since it up to them upon inspection to determine what is "good."  Hopefully I it shipped out this week since I always submit trade in and never ship it but this time I am more motivated since I want the money for a tablet for Ben. There is a Kindle tablet for $79 which I can afford that but it had okay views. It is funny how his electric razor is more then that but I bought it on sale and with Kohl's cash. I think I will get Ben a tablet and hopefully I get a good deal on my trade-in submissions.

For a V-Day card, I saw online how people made Lego hearts. I love it! I can make one into a card/gift. One person made a ornament and another a magnet. I could do something like that. Now I just need Legos. I wonder if they have a cheaper version of Legos at a dollar store. And we saw that movie a year ago too for his birthday. Aw, it's perfect. I love it. I'm so inspired. I hope I can get some Legos. Maybe I can get some if I have left over credit on Amazon after a buying a tablet for Ben. I'm so inspired. I want to make it now but I need to study and clean my room. Ugh!!! I'm going to fail my exam at this rate...sigh.... :/