Wednesday, August 21, 2013
Last night, well more like this morning, Ben and I were Face Timing and while we were talking he said how he was my boyfriend during the conversation. My heart melted. Still I wish he would ask me in person and make it official but that's guys for you. So I'm pretty sure he introduced me as his girlfriend when we went to the movies but probably the "girl" part got drowned out from the outside noise because it was kind of loud outside the theater. Ben invited me to one of his friends from the weddings birthday party, so hopefully I can go. For now, I will continuing wondering how to get Ben to ask me to be his girlfriend officially.
Tuesday, August 13, 2013
Right now Ben is camping and I miss him. We got to hang out on Saturday and I got to meet more of his friends. I hadn't seen him since he invited me to a wedding and where I also met more of his friends. At the wedding he either introduced me as his "lady friend" or by my name. Idk if his friends think I'm his gf or not. I know he did once show some of his friends a picture of me and told them that this was the person he was seeing. Idk if these were the friends though but I did find it funny how this group of friends they are either single or in a relationship in threes. So Ben and I now made the third part of the relationship and one of his friends was recently single and now made the third person to be single. He also went to a party and was telling people all about me, his girlfriend. I'm pretty sure his friends at the wedding thought I was his girlfriend but I'm not sure about the friends he introduced me to on Saturday. It was a little embarrassing that everyone was dressed up except me. :/ I thought it was going to be a casual night so I decided to save my nice clothes for another night. He did make efforts to hold my hand and stand close to me whenever, so maybe. However, he did introduced me as his friend but maybe he said girlfriend but couldn't hear because there was a lot of people outside the movie theater, so maybe. I wanted to ask him after the movies but didn't know how to bring it up. I know I can talk to him about anything but I don't know how to ask. I looked up some ideas but I'm still a little nervous on how to bring up "DTR." I think it also has to do with my past relationship and how that relationship just destroyed me in every way possible. I know Ben is nothing like my ex but the wounds of my past remain as scars but most have faded now but some still show but are gradually fading. Also, another part of me is old-fashioned and want that romantic way of being asked to be Ben's girlfriend officially. He claims to be a romantic but yet he hasn't asked me to be his gf officially. I know we are unofficially a couple but still, it would be sweet to be asked to be his gf and celebrate anniversaries.
Monday, August 12, 2013
Things are finally getting back to normal now. The last couple of weeks have been cra-cra (especially with school, work and Ben) but I survived. Last week was especially hard since it was the last week of school for me so pretty much everything was due and of course I have to wait to the last day to start and finish assignments. Taking two classes was def a challenge but I managed while working but I did have to sacrifice my social life in the process and my running and gym time but next time I am going to try to do things ahead of time especially when my fall class starts bc I'll be working more so its going to be hard to balance work and school. And why is it every time I am super busy, like last week, ppl then decided to hit me up and want to hang but when I'm free, nada! It has to be a sign to stop procrastinating on assignments. I'm only taking one class this time bc I just want to be able to focus on one class while working plus in the fall/winter there's a lot to due especially with all the different holidays. I also want more time to be with Ben even though he's going to be super busy and I want to stay on track with running and working out at the gym. I am however glad I was able to get into a class since community colleges are so impacted these days even though it wasn't the first choice of class I wanted but I'm glad I got in. It's still a class I need towards a permit/certificate. The other class I could have waited listed but decided not to bc I think one class is enough. I just hope next time I can get in the class or at least get waited listed, hopefully I'm not making a mistake by not waiting list and only taking one class this term. Hopefully prices don't go up for units too! I am glad online classes let me work and take the classes at my time, hopefully I am able to get all the online classes towards my permit/certificate. For now, I'm just going to enjoy the rest of summer and delay checking the status of my finally grades bc I just want a break and enjoy life while I can and not dwell if I didn't do go.