Miracle

I'm in need of a miracle.  My break from school is almost over.  I'm a little sad because I won't be able to sub and make money but on the other hand I am moving forward with my degree.  Since I took this term off, I need to write an appeal letter for my financial aid. I pray that I get my financial aid.  However, after this term, I don't know how I'll pay for my remaining classes.  I need a summer job but I also want to go to summer school and take a class towards a certificate program.  The class would be at night though but still I am worried about money. I don't want to take another loan out.  I'm going to try and appeal for scholarships in the summer.  I would be happy if I just get one, even if it was for $20, it would be better then nothing. Hopefully Ill be able to balance my classes starting soon with the one I am currently taking online at a city college. I don't want to drop it because it is towards my certification program. Hopefully things work out and I hope Ben finds a job too.

Happy Tears

So I will be busy when school starts again next week but I will get into that later.

Last I left off, I was planning my outfit for my date night with Ben at an aquarium. I was planning on wearing a jumpsuit but it was getting cold and I had just received my email containing my last CSET test. I decided to wear something casual since it was cold and I didn't want to look nice and then check my results and be sad that I didn't pass. While at the aquarium date night, I gave him his birthday gifts and Valentine's Day gifts. He liked the headphones and Pokémon cards for his birthday.  He laughed when he saw the headphones because he mentioned how he always needs headphones because he goes through them all the time.  The Pokémon ball didn't arrive on time, it actually came that Monday. I knew I should of waited to give him his Valentine's Day gift, but oh well.  I gave it to him the next time I saw him.  Anyways back to the date night, so next I gave him his Valentine's Day gifts. I first gave him the Pokémon wallet which he liked because he said he needed a new wallet and then I gave him the bracelet.  He was surprised when he saw the Pokémon "I Choose You" bracelet.  He asked me if it came with another one and I told him it did and then he told me how he saw them at Hot Topic and was thinking of buying it but he didn't have money.  He thought it was sweet we were thinking of the same thing. I'm glad I bought it when I did because they sold out online so I could only imagine they sold out in stores for Valentine's Day.  Then we ate at a food truck and he took a picture of us wearing the bracelet as we waited for our food.  While we walked around the aquarium I tried not to think about my test results.  Finally Ben and I found a spot where we could check the test results.  He looked at it first.  He covered the part that said if I passed or not and before he showed me, he said how he loved me no matter what.  He then showed me my results and I passed. I was shocked because I thought I didn't pass for sure.  I was so sure that I didn't pass that I even registered and paid for it again.  I actually found myself happy because I finally passed and now I could finally start student teaching after a year of struggling to pass my exams. I thought Ben was going to say that I passed in his heart and then show my results and then see that I didn't pass but nope that didn't happen thankfully.  After that my mood shifted and I even found myself shedding a few happy tears. I don't think I ever cried happy tears in my life up till that point.  After that we went home and it was the perfect ending to our date night.       

Almost HERE

It is almost time for our date. I went to the mall yesterday and found an outfit for Friday. I just need to figure what accessories to wear with it and shoes. But at least I have something I feel comfortable in and won't necessarily freeze in. I also saw the post office's car drive by delivering package and I thought maybe I would be lucky and get the Pokémon ball delivered today, but sadly no.  The car drove past my house. Hopefully it comes by Friday!!!!!!

Around The Corner

Ben's birthday and Valentine's Day are just around the corner. I have everything but one thing! I am still waiting for the Pokeball to be delivered. Its estimated delivery time is between Feb. 8-12th and I need it by the 12th. I hope it comes on time because part of his Valentine's Day present were these matching Pokémon bracelets from Hot Topic and I was going to put his bracelet inside the Pokeball. I hope he doesn't buy the same bracelet because he shops at Hot Topic too! If he does, that's okay because it shows we think alike lol. I have to remember to make sure I remove the price tags off the items that have them, like the Pokémon cards. I'm also still working on my outfit idea too!!! It's almost time!!!! 

Found It

So I found what I am going to give Ben for his birthday and Valentine's Day. So for his birthday, some red headphones, I think I mentioned them before and 2 packs of Pokémon cards.  Then I found on eBay, a pokeball with a heart, which I'm sure has a name. It opens and closes. So the last few days I have been searching for something to put in it for Valentine's Day and so over the weekend I saw online that Hop Topic had Pokémon couple bracelets that say, "I choose you" on them. It was perfect to put inside the pokeball. Hopefully the pokeball comes in time for Valentine's Day. I also got him a wallet with various types of Eeve evolved on it. They also had 20% online so that was nice but shipping cost $4.99. I could of opted to pick up in store but there really isn't a Hot Topic near me. There is one by my work but it is still out of the way and I don't know when Ill be able to stop by and pick it up and the cost of gas is the same anyways. I was also going to get him a Hello Kitty birthday Beanie Baby, like I say I am going to every year but I am happy with what I got him. I hope everything comes in on time. Now I don't have to worry about his birthday and Valentine's Day until next year.

So Ben's Valentine's Day plan is for us to have dinner after hours at an aquarium on February 12th. So that will be nice and romantic since I had my prom their and this time I have a date. Hopefully I can go and neither one of us gets sick. I just need to figure out what to wear. Casual nice? Formal? Semi-formal?     

That Time of Year Again

It's that time of year again where I start thinking about Valentine's Day and Ben's birthday. Every year it seems like we don't spend Valentine's Day together because one of us is either busy or sick. But that doesn't mean that I don't constantly think about what I would hear, what I should get for Ben, and how to fix my nails. I am already thinking and planning but I'm willing to bet we won't spend Valentine's Day or his birthday together. Last Valentine's Day I was sick and I didn't really make an effort with his birthday because I was mad at him and was at the gym while he was out and about celebrating with his friends. Anyways, so what I have for Ben so far are red headphones because he is like me and goes through headphones like crazy and he can use them when we talk on the phone or FaceTime. I just also ordered him Pokémon cards from Kohls, I got him two sets since it was buy one get one 50%. I just came across it last night and knew it was perfect for Ben because he likes Pokémon among other things. Those would probably be his birthday gifts, as for Valentine's Day, I'm still working on it, maybe a red Betta fish, lol, but then I might want to keep it and I don't know how well he would take care of it. I'll find something like I always do. I just don't want it to break my piggybank or distract me from work and school.

Change

Going through so many changes and some I am not ready for. So  during Thanksgiving break, I watched 3MSC and Tengo Ganas De Ti. After watching TGDT, I thought maybe their was still chance Babi and Hache would get together down the road but now I think maybe they shouldn't get back together and change is good. So what happened was I finished the fall term the week before Thanksgiving break and found out also I would be getting a new host school and teacher for guided practice. I was sad at first because I was just getting used to my former host school and getting to know some of the staff. I knew I was going to get a new host teacher since my current teacher only had two classes for my subject area and I need at least four hours of teaching for guided practice. I told my school placement advisor if he couldn't find something at my former host school if he could find something at a school distract I suggested and he did. I thought he wouldn't since I had the school district before and no luck. I was sad when I read the email informing of my new host school but as the weeks went on I reflected on it. Maybe change is good. Like when Hache returned to Spain from London and excepted things to be the way they were two years later. At first he couldn't accept change but then finally he let go of Babi and found new love with Gin. So I need to let go. Sometimes I feel like Hache when I go to the gym still, I think Omar will be there and life is still the way it was years ago when Omar was there. But I know it won't be ever like that. The last time I went to the gym Omar didn't cross my mind so I know I am ready for change. I also got my CSET results last Friday, I passed one exam and still need to pass one more before I can start guided practice. I knew I wasn't going to pass it after the exam. Hopefully I pass this time. Sine I didn't pass that one exam, I don't know what I am going to do next term. A part of me is happy I didn't pass because I really want to take a term off. I just want to work as many days as possible so I afford the classes I have left and not stress as much. Last term burnt me out trying to balance school and work and I was stressed about paying for the term since I did the five payment plan. So if I took a term off, I could hopefully make as much money as possible and not worry about finishing assignments or making it to class on time. As much as I'll miss my former host school, I think I am ready for a change...and I'll be studying for my last CSET, I hope I pass!!!!